Let's try this again. Starting all over... Day #1

I look at you, and I see hope.
The want to leave an just elope.
To be just us two, and enjoy our lives.
It's the perfection I long for and strive.

You make it hard, and you hurt me like hell.
I try to stay strong, but this story I must tell.
I don't want to be mean but here it goes.
I'm scared of being with the same old hoes.

It's not your fault, and I know it's true.
I couldn't help but fall in love with you.
You care sometimes, and sometimes you don't.
You know I care, and leaving you: I won't.

So I end this prompt story with a request.
I want what we first had; the best.
Sotp being so cold-hearted and appreciate,
The fact that I could be your soulmate. :(..